Still Here!

I know I have been a very poor blogger but life has a way of intervening in your best laid plans sometimes. Since my last post about the infamous flat tire (did I tell you I forgot to set the parking brake so the tire was spinning while I was trying to put it back on?), life has been busy. - My kitchen is now ready to be painted and then my cabinets can go back in. It will be so nice to have a working sink again. I'm not sure I'll know what to do with myself.
- My garden is in the ground and looking kind of sad. So far I think all it will probably make will be green beans and potatoes.
- My son left for basic training. I know he's 20 years old but when I read the letters he writes home, I still see my five year old little boy with the buzz haircut and the cow-lick in the front (or as he used to call it, a deer-lick!). My mommy instinct is to go out there and bring my baby home but my common sense tells me that sometimes being a good mommy is letting go. I hate my common sense right now and if it ever goes to sleep I plan on killing it!
- I've been working the concession stand at the little league field four nights a week. What can I say, I'm a glutton for punishment. What's really sad is that in a couple of more years, my GRANDSON will be out there playing on those fields. Man, is my daughter getting old!
- Lastly, it will soon be a year since I moved out and started a new path for my life. I look back at all the things I've been through or dealt with (like the mouse in the washing machine) and I realize that I've got an inner strength that has seen me through. For the first time in a long time, I feel some sense of normalcy about my life. I've settled into a routine and try to weave and bob with the punches that are thrown my way occasionally. I've learned a few things also. 1. I don't have to be in control all the time. (Hello, my name is Lisa and I have control issues. It's a family thing) It really is okay to let others do things. 2. Settle for less than perfect. (more control issues) Everything does not have to be just so. There have been times when my brother has been in my house and I know he thought, "Does she ever clean this place?" I do clean but I'm not obsessed with it. Seeing as I've been living in a construction zone for the past six months, there's just not a whole lot you can do to clean. The best I've been able to achieve so far has been livable. Since I don't cook much at all, I don't have to worry about the health department shutting me down. 3. 100 years from now, who's gonna care? Maybe not even 100. Maybe only 20 or so. Who's gonna care that part of my cabinets sat on my porch for several months? Or that the yard looks like the wilderness is trying to take it back? Or that I didn't wash my sheets for a month? (seriously, if you're clean when you go to bed why change them every week?) 4. If I never marry again, I will survive by myself. It's not what I want but if it's just not in the cards for me again, I can accept that.
The old saying that "Life is what you make of it" is true. All the things that have happened to me could have been seriously depressing and I did struggle with those feelings from time to time. But when all is said and done, you just have to go on living. So if any of you who read my blog, (all four followers and some of you lurkers out there) are going through difficult times, the sun will shine again. Hang in there - like a hair in a biscuit! (thanks Steve for the quote - love that expression!)